Wednesday, April 23, 2008

2 years

So, 2 years ago my boy was born. That is really incredible. It feels like yesterday that we drove away from the hospital and curious why someone would allow us to leave a hospital with a baby. It has defiantly gotten more normal to be a dad, but sometimes i still look and L and ask "are you really mine?" I usually just looks at me and smiles and says something about balls or trains.

so i wanted to say that on April 24th 2006 God answered a prayer of mine. I became a dad to a boy. Today will not be much different from yesterday but like everyday will tell my boy how proud i am to be his dad, tell him how much i love him and I will give him a big hug and kiss.

even though you obviously can't read this "happy birthday buddy".

if you are out in blog world and want to buy my boy something, here is what to get him....a Fender Tele. His dad will use it to lead worship for a bit then pass it down. there ya go.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

somtimes you just have to stop

So I was sitting my office the other day working and I had Bruce Springsteen, The Ghost Of Tom Joad album (thanks BTM) playing. I have this thing that I often just have music on and don’t really listen. Well something happened that day in my office. Nothing magical just something. I heard him playing and felt it. See I wrote before about music moving us. Check it out here. I have never been much of a Springsteen fan but this album sounds nothing like what I have always thought he sounds like. This is a raw mostly guitar album that feels mysterious and comfortable. I asked BTM for front porch music and that’s what it is. Its music that fits a sun set in our country little town of Watkinsville. So I was listening probably for the 1st time in a while I think I was feeling music. I love that. I turned off Bruce, picked up my guitar and made music. It was not what I expected, but it was interesting. All I will say is that the song took on the title ‘liar’ about a girl I once knew. Here is a taste of the lyric:
I am nothing like
Hope I’ll never be
I see you as a liar
How do you see me

I may actually clean the song up and put it on my myspace one of these days.

But here is what I am trying to say: sometimes we just have to stop and listen. Sometimes to feel the emotion of the moment we have to be in the moment. I am a guy that lives for the next moment instead of living and loving where I am.
So what is my new goal you ask…live in the moment and feel music. How could I not live in the moment or feel music when this boy does both better than anyone else I have ever known.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

one of the biggest new churches in america

oh wait thats just american idol trying to look like grander community church and all the other churches out there being cover bands. american idol covers the church like many churches try and cover...i guess you would call them non church songs.

i don't remember the last time i sang this song and honestly i may never sing it again just because of this.

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

what the deuce?

what the deuce is Axl wearing?

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

The rant is back!

1) I am bummed that one iof my drummer is getting married (currently a freshman in college) and the other works late nights at Trapeze. That makes having a consistent drummer hard.
2) My boy turns 2 in a few weeks. That’s really nuts.
3) I still want an electric guitar. So I throw it out there in case someone has one that you would be willing to give to a worship leader in Watkinsville. i am not to picky.
4) My yard is huge. I road my tractor for 50 min today and only got through about 1/3 of it.
5) I might be addicted to the internet. I am having to make my self stop some
6) I really feel like I am getting older. I find myself remembering when life was easier and things were much cheaper. Yup I am about to turn 30.
7) Here are a couple of goals for the coming year. Change how a strum more bluegrass hold of the pick and less attack, play 1 song on the piano in public.
8) I might pay off student loans this year…have to sell my car for this to happen. C has been great sticking to the budget to give this even a chance of happening.
9) I played the snare and a cymbal this Sunday in church and it wasn’t embarrassing.
10) L has started to dribble a ball. I know he isn’t even 2 is that possible? He can get 2 or 3 bounces. We will start making sure he can use both hands to dribble soon.
11) I still think Ophra is leading the #1 cult in America
12) Just read Vintage Jesus by Mark Driscoll and liked it a lot.
13) My favorite season is winter, because I like to wear jackets Auzell and I are in agreement here.
14) Tomorrow I might be making my 1st patch bay
15) I miss C and me talking to SUS on ichat.
16) I need to be able to sleep better. My mind runs like crazy and its hard to catch.
17) Rosie is not obeying as well as she used to. Rosie is our dog incase you didn’t know.
18) I know the names of WAY to many Thomas Trains.
19) BTM is introducing me to some new music. 1st on the list Sun Kil Moon. Check them out.
Ok I am off to bed. Night.

Friday, April 04, 2008

things make me cry

one thing my lady thinks is really funny is that fact that i consider myself a crier. i feel like i cry very easily. most things i cry about have to do with things concerning my boy. see i really want to be a great dad. i want live out the gospel to him. i want him to know that i hope for him to know Jesus more than i hope for his purity, sobriety, or for him to like me. i know i have no control over that but i want to be old and look at my son and know that i did my best to live out the gospel to him. and all i am saying there is that i want to love him regardless of who he becomes and be ok with the process. this all came to my mind tonight because i read a blog that had the tribute page from a new book by bob kauflin. its says:

"to my grandsons (then states their names)
may you be among those who lead your generation to encounter the greatness of God in Jesus Christ through the power of the Holy Spirit."
Psalm 71:18
and that says
"So even to old age and gray hairs,
O God, do not forsake me,
until I proclaim your might to another generation,
your power to all those to come.

i read that and thought (kind of cried), that’s it. i pray that my boy will lead his generation to encounter the greatness of God in Jesus Christ through the power of the Holy Spirit.
that is my new prayer for him. what a task. only by Gods strength, power and work can i live a life that reflects Jesus and only through the same power can L lead his generation to encounter the greatness of God.

below is a picture of the tribute page of Bob's book.